The Journey Begins

Back from the doctor

2006-03-13T10:19:00.000-06:00

She said that most of my tests came back within normal ranges. She said that my chlorestoral was "amazing" it was at 183. She said the good was low at 86, she wants it higher but she's not going to complain, but keep it under monitor. My liver and kidney panels came back perfectly normal. My thyroid is normal and even my glucose is normal, however she says that can be deceptive. So she's put me on spironolactone because my free testosterone was still too high and glucophage to see if that helps normalize everything else out with my body. I'm to see her in one month to get more tests to make sure that it isn't hurting my kidneys or liver and to see in general if it is helping any at all.

Her appointments clerk, a girl I used to work with, tells me that she has the same thing. It seems that the world is coming down with something like this and it makes me wonder if it is environmentally created rather than something inherent in all of us. Maybe we are predisposed to certain issues and our environments cause it to spring to life? I don't know. Anyways just a thought.

Well this is the 6th day

2006-03-13T08:01:00.000-06:00

Out of the last 6 days, from the 8th to today I've done those weight exercises every day with the exception of one. I have to thank my friend Susan from work for the idea. She was telling me of the exercises that she does every day, which are only the 10 forward, reverse, and total crunches and 10 pushups everyday. I need more toning to my arms, thus I added the arm exercises. I also added dead leg lifts as well, because I didn't feel the reverse crunch work where I wanted it to. I am thinking that maybe my size honestly has something to do with that. Because I hopped on the floor (well Susan and I both did) and we are doing the same movement. But she's much smaller than me, and can move further along than I can. I am thinking that in this instance my girth literally prevents the movement from being a very good movement. So, I'm still doing them though, no sense in NOT doing them, as well as the dead weight leg lifts. And all of this is done in under 10 minutes. And I'm getting deeper into the movements as the week heads on. So I know I'm doing something right.

So the exercises so far are,

10 hand facing curls
10 hand facing away curls
10 tricep raises
10 backward tricep/bicep curls
10 shoulder blade raises
10 pec curls
10 forward crunches
10 reverse crunches
10 total crunches
10 dead leg lifts
10 pushups (girlie style on knees instead of toes)

I go back to the doc today with my results from last year as well as the results of the tests that she's ran. We'll see what she has to say. I guess I'll post more later after the docs appointment.

My new routine.....the one that needs to stick...

2006-03-08T14:23:00.000-06:00

Ok, so far I am developing a new exercise routine at least for a moment. I'm going to do something every day, this is just one of the things that I'm doing.

I have 5lb weights that I'm using. 10 reps per arm on bicep curl, outward turned hands bicep curl, tricep lift, tricep curl, shoulderblade raise and pec curl. I'm also doing 10 crunches, reverse crunches and total crunches and 10 pushups. And I did my belly dancing today. :D I'll do it all over again tomorrow and the next day and the next day and so forth and so on. At the end of the month I'll be getting my eliptical machine so I'll be incorporating it as well.

Movement = good

and this isn't strenuous movement for me. I won't feel it tomorrow. It's just movement. No pain for me.

So I went to the doc today

2006-03-06T11:36:00.000-06:00

And she is running her own tests. She still wants the results of the tests that the other doctor took back in July, but she said that she wants her own, besides enough time has passed and she wanted to see how things have changed in this almost a year. She also wants to make sure my liver and kidneys are functioning well before putting me on glucophage and some "diruetic". I see her again on Monday with the results from her lab work and the ones from the other doctor. So more than likely I'll be put on those meds, since my liver and kidneys are working fine. I'm hoping that this doctor gives me some help that I'm clueless on otherwise. All I know is I stay tired all the time. :( And all I want to do is curl up. I am really wondering if maybe I should go back to being on caffiene. Because not being on it makes me like this and it's more than just a couple of months....it's been a long while right now. Hopefully I can figure something out. At least I'm hoping so.

some changes

2006-03-01T11:55:00.000-06:00

I have a doctors appointment on Monday. We're to discuss my PCOS and what symptoms are giving me the most stress and what we can do to combat them. I have heard nothing but good things about this doctor. She's inclined to put people on meds at first, but is willing to ween them off of them if it seems they are capable of controlling the symptoms on their own. :) So this is good news to me. I'm going to ask her questions on candida testing and food intolerances as well as food allergies and chronic inflammation. See if any of these apply and if so, should I be tested for them as well. I'm kind of nervous, I've heard how Metformin makes you sick to your stomach and gives issues. But we'll see. I've been trying cinnamon, but it's causing me heartburn. Which isn't good. I rarely get it, but it's been something that's been occuring more frequently and I'm not liking that. I've stopped taking the extra vit c, because of it as well. I wish I knew how to add friends to my blogger.

2006

2006-01-06T11:55:00.000-06:00

Wow, I've not posted in a while. And to be honest, I've fell from the wagon pretty hardcore. I still have some of the patterns that I worked so hard to create, like I eat MANY more veggies than before and I'm trying to find ways of picking up more protein in my diet and to eliminate more bad carbs. Also, I'm picking up more organic foods. Which is actually kind of hard to do in this town. However, our farmer's market is part of the organic co-op, so I can't wait to check it out. This time of year, the pickings are real slim. But I'm also thinking of having my own container garden. I'm thinking of growing some tomatoes and herbs in containers in my backyard. Since I can't have an actual garden as I don't have the space for it. But I think a few tomato plants and such will be a nice as well as some herb runners. :D And in my front yard, I'm going to plant some flowers. It'll be pretty. Hopefully my garden veggies will turn out ok. I don't have much of a green thumb. It'll be different cooking with fresh herbs too, but I'm sure I'll do ok. :D

Ok, time to kick this year off right! :D This is the year for me and healthier living! WOOT!

:(

2005-11-27T13:09:00.000-06:00

I've not been feeling well lately. I've had to get back on my birthcontrol pills. I've had loads of stress at work and my hair is falling out in clumps. I have less hair than before. Almost bald in patches. :( And I know my eating has went to pot. And I'm slowly gaining some of the weight back. I need to get back on track. But I'm not going to worry about my hormones at the moment, I'm going to try to destress from work and eat better and take my vitamins and bcp. *shrugs* It's all a part of it, I suppose. I found out on Thanksgiving that my gramma is dying. As in the doctor told her she won't be around much longer. I've dinged my car. My job is blowing monkey nuts and I'm about to PULL the rest of my hair out. I wish Christmas were already over. The Christmas spirit is always shitty in retail. I need to find a different job.

Off to a new restart!

YAY!

2005-10-23T12:07:00.000-05:00

I got my girlie today! WOOHHOOOOO! :D

Super poop of a day

2005-10-22T00:28:00.000-05:00

Boy howdy it has been a hard day. :( I knew it would be when I woke up. I felt so drugged when I woke up this morning. But then I stayed up WAY too late. I know I shouldn't have, but when else was I going to get my grocery shopping done? So I didn't get to bed until 4:30, and I got up at 10:30. Not bad amount of sleep, but I was too tired when I went to bed, so I drug butt all day. So I piddled around and got ready for work. I left a little early as I needed to pay a bill. Paid it and got to work a little early. Then all sorts of hell broke loose. Needless to say, it's a bunch of crap. There is so much stress going on at work, my boss felt it ok to wait until NOW (when she knew 2 weeks ago) to get our department PERFECT for the district meeting that is being held in OUR department. Is she going to work this weekend to ensure this gets done. Why of course not. But 4 pages of notes is expected to get finished. AS well as the customer flow because it is one of the weekends before Christmas, AS well as it being Fall Firearm Turkey weekend. AS well as freight, AS well as other manager notes, AS well as the normal day to day zoning and stuff that needs to be done. And her first words to me after saying hi, wasn't "thanks for fixing that four foot section. Or thanks for doing that four foot section." Nope, it was "WHY DIDN'T YOU FINISH THAT FOUR FOOT SECTION". It was missing 2 labels. Just two simple labels. And when I mentioned that was all that was missing, she asks me why didn't I make them. Well excuse me I had to FIX her four foot section because she's too lazy to lift the steel cap to put her first row of pegs up right. WHICH caused me to NOT be able to get my fixture in there to finish that 4ft section because her pegs were too low. That was 2 hours of my night. NOT to mention the fact that had to tear down parts of another section in another part of the store so we could move some crap over there. Something SHE could have had done earlier yesterday. And as for those two labels, she's been there all day long, she's had a telexon and printer in her hands all day long, she could have made those two freaking labels herself. But NOooooOOooo, she's incapable and instead would rather use her vocal cords to harp at me. Then she wants to tell me to "step it up a notch" all because of this bullshit meeting that could have been TAKEN care of within the last two weeks this weekend. Oh I feel so sorry for her, I'll do what I can, and I'll make sure that I'm busy doing her JOB, but it won't get finished and she can suffer for it on Monday. And if she really wants to be a poohead about it, I might just start my vacation a day early and call in on Monday. And honestly, if my head doesn't start getting to feel better, I might not have much choice. Within 30 minutes of being there, my neck got so stiff and my head started hurting so badly. I almost started crying out on the sales floor and I almost walked out and took a personal day. She'd better have her head on straight Monday or I'll head my sorry tail to the front end to cashier.

Ok, my rant is over. My day is poopy, my head hurts, I feel like crap physically, and I've not exercised in the last two days. Tonight I'm going to bed early, tomorrow I'm going to wake up at a decent time, meditate and work out and be chill before work. I'm determined to.

Hmmm

2005-10-19T15:11:00.000-05:00

Well today is day six of my exercising daily, and thus far it isn't a chore at all. I have done the belly dancing and again the pilates today. My belly is definately feeling more used today than before, but still short of sore. We'll see how it is tomorrow. I might have to forego the pilates tomorrow, but it's ok. On Friday, my girlfriend is coming over to do it with me again. I'm excited about this, because I enjoy working out with her. We giggle so much. *L* So I weighed myself today and I'm down to a total of 23lbs lost. That puts me at 260. :D One more pound and I'm at the 250 range. And this is exciting me more than anything else. Makes me not want to eat today just so I can hit it, but I'll eat and I'll not be 259 tomorrow *L* But it makes me wanna squee and wiggle. Which is something I've been doing all day. *LOL* Just seven more pounds until I get my mini goal of 15lbs down by December 1st. :D That's 6 weeks to lose 7lbs. I think I can do it. :D Even WITH Thanksgiving coming. :D This has me beyond excited.

My symptoms don't seem to be getting any better or worse. I really do think I've ovulated this month. We'll see if I have a period and when it comes. It is supposed to be here between October 27th - 29th. We'll see. Honestly I hope it does come. I really want it to. I want to know that this way is working. I want to know that I'm making myself healthier for life. :) And I'm still counting on taking that test as soon as I get the money. I'm just trying to do my best without it, without doing the elimination diet. :) I'm sensative enough that if I eat something and I weigh the next day and pack on 5 or so lbs, that something I ate that day (generally something I'm not eating regularly) is flaring me up big time and I tend to avoid it. :) That's about as close as I can get to doing a true elimination diet as I can get. Which is ok. I'm learning to listen to my body.

So I'm blogging at the end of the day, surprise surprise

2005-10-18T22:50:00.000-05:00

Well I did work out today. I did the belly dancing as I had been doing for the past little bit, and I added in some mild pilates. It was a pilates I could do that didn't kill me. *L* And all day today I could feel my stomach tight. Not sore, but tight like it ought to feel. I think I'll do that from here on out as well. Do both, belly dancing and then the mild pilates until I get stronger and in better shape. RAWR! Rock on me. *L* I make Rob giggle at me all the time, because I'm always wiggling/dancing/being silly around the house. I don't think he's used to that. Because when I left our old house to move in here, I was rather unpleasant. Now granted soooo much has changed in me other than finding out about PCOS, but I still think it surprises him that I'm so goofy. I wish I could get him to understand part of my past issues with my attitude and all were in part PCOS because of the hormone imbalance and the stress I was putting my body through.
I'm not sure he'll understand, but then it is kinda hard to understand the complexities of hormones and how it affects each of us differently and how if you are predisposed to having your system get out of whack easily, then it would make sense that it affect you mentally and emotionally as well.

Ok, now that I was sidetracked, back to my day. After I exercised, I threw on a shirt (I had on my exercise shirt which is a single strappy thing that's tight and lets face it I really don't need to be advertising my wares for the public to see) and I sat on the step outside my apartment. It was cooler today and the sun wasn't so bright so I sat out there for about 30 minutes. :) And strangely enough, my shoulders and back of my neck (where the sun was shining) feels warmer and "touched" on the days that I go outside. I like the feeling and I like knowing that the little amount that I do it, isn't hurting my skin. :)

Well, guys, Anita Blake (the hero in the book I'm reading) is calling my name. :)

Hmmm

2005-10-18T10:44:00.000-05:00

I hate that we have to name each blog, because sometimes I'll just sit here forever trying to think of a suitable name and there isn't one. *LOL* I think I'll just name all of these type blog entries as Hmmm. *L* Or, a day in the life of. Nah. Hmmm is better. Shorter and really more to the point. *L*

Well I exercised again yesterday, it rocked socks. :D My muscles still feel used, but not "USED". They are feeling more....right? Not really supple or firm or abused in any way. But I feel them, and they are in use and they are working right. That type of thing. So I know I'm doing something good. :D I'm just trying to wake up enough right now so I'm somewhat coordinated enough so I don't kill myself in my attempts. The only problem I've been having is my right foot starts burning about midway through the routine. I know it's my arch problem, but you can't really wear shoes with stiff, unyeilding arch supports in them and do this. Oh well. I'll figure something out. :)

I can't wait until Thursday! I get to buy some groceries. All that's left in this house is stuff I shouldn't eat, but really don't have much choice. No money means no healthy food and means eat what you can or starve. But it's just a few days. I can swing it.

I had my first soda in FOREVER yesterday. It was a Sprite Zero. Ugh, drinking it made me want my water even more. I'm NOT a fan of sodas anymore. And it gave me heartburn! So lesson learned yesterday, NO more sodas. ICK!

I think today I'm going to do my belly dancing and then start on my basic moves pilates. It's not long in duration nor is it difficult like my pilates for weightloss. (damn that ish hurts!) Today is my day off so I have more time and I can play around with it. Plus when I get done I get to go outside for my Vitamin D. :) Strangely enough I'm looking forward to it. What makes it strange is that I have avoided the sunlight for more than half my life. *LOL* I have this fear of skin cancer and damaging my skin. But I called and talked to the dermatologists nurse and she said that 15 minutes of morning or evening sun per day won't hurt. Especially since I'm darker complected anyways. I just have to make sure I miss peak time. Or if I do hit peak time, that I do it less frequently. So that decides that. :D I get to work out in a few moments and I get to get some vitamin D and while I do that I get to read my Laura K Hamilton book. :D I love to read so much!

exercising, conversations and life

2005-10-16T12:15:00.000-05:00

Well, today is the third day that I've been exercising. No forcing myself or anything like that again. Wow, whatever am I going to do with myself. Today I feel my muscles more than I did yesterday. Not so much sore as having been worked so they felt "used". *L* Oh well, it'll get easier over time and it is all a beautiful thing. The weather here is so pretty. Why can't it be like this all year around. Rob says that this is what summer in LA is like. Which is nice, I don't know if I would want to live out there though. I'm not too keen on such a hurry and besides, that is the land of the fake and beautiful (not talking about Tulin or Mere on the fake part). I just don't think that a place that puts such emphasis on looks and attractability is a place for me right now. I know I'm not doing gobs of exercise, but any exercise is better than no exercise, and I'm not out to push it. I'm just out to move and enjoy myself. Which is what I'm doing. :)

I talked to my cousin's wife yesterday. I hadn't seen her in such a long time. She was telling me about how thin my cousin has gotten. Which is worrisome. She's even worried about him. He's one of those barrel chested guys. Though he is short, he has a stocky frame, and she said his ribs over hang his stomach by inches. She's trying to get him to work out with weights to see if that will help him get more uniformly in shape, but he's wanting to stay at 160lbs. (which is too thin for his frame. we are a broad framed family) We also talked about body image and LITTLE girls. Her daughter is aproximately the same age as my neice, who is 7, and they are both going on about how they are fat. Both little girls have to have their pants altered because they are tall and thin. To get them to fit in length they are too baggy, to get them to fit in the waist the pants are too short. And both of them aren't wanting to eat because they'll get fat. THEY AREN'T EVEN 10 YET! And this worries me. Where are they learning this behaviour? I know my niece is raised by someone who doesn't even bother to watch her weight or what she eats. (she's one of the lucky sorts who can have any and everything she wants. Even pregnancy didn't cause her to gain much weight. 13lbs total. 7 of which was my neice.) And my brother is the same way. His girlfriend is a tiny thing, but she's like the other two. Then there is my Ma and me. We are both heavier set and we don't "diet". She doesn't hear any of us talk about our bodies and dieting and trying to lose weight. She asked me if I was loosing weight the other day because my face was "skinnier". And I sat her down and told her that I had an illness. And in order to get better I had to eat better. And I had to not eat certain things because it would make me sick. She cried, and asked me if I could have some birthday cake. And when I told her no, because it's not veggies and fruit and stuff, she said she'd bake me a carrot cake instead because it was a cake but it was a vegetable too. >.< *L* Gotta love the logic of children. But I make it a point to make sure she knows it isn't because of body image or low self-esteem. So it bothers me that these two tiny girls are worried about being fat and who and what is making them think that way. Also in talking with Tabbie, I found out that she goes walking in the park on the weekends. Which is great in my opinion, because that means I'll have someone to walk with until the weather gets too bad. So now I have my girlfriend who'll giggle her way through belly dancing with me, and my cousins wife who'll keep me company walking around the park.

Today, I got in my vitamin D. Go me. *L* I read a little while I was out there soaking in the good vitamin.

Second day running

2005-10-15T11:51:00.000-05:00

Well, yesterday morning my girlfriend came over and we giggled our way through my belly dancing tape. *L* I enjoyed it and I can tell I've not done it in a LONG time because though I wasn't sore, I could feel those muscles again. And I woke up today to her calling me and telling me that she can't do it. Which is fine, she works thirds and she's got a life besides. So I wake up and do it on my own. That's the rocking part about today. I just did it. No motivational pep talk needed. Just looked at the tv and turned it on without thinking. RAWR! I am a healthier me than I was this time last year. And I'll be a healthier me this time next year. And honestly I can't wait. I'm excited that I put on my exercise tops and knowing that they were tight on me before are looser now. :) I felt so good yesterday that I went outside for my 15 minutes of Vitamin D. *LOL* So I forgot my water jug the other day at work. I thought I was going to DIE! No vitamin C water that day and I almost wept because I felt like I was dying of thirst all day long. Oh well, lesson learned there. *LOL* MUST have VIT C water always. *L*

Weight is such a finicky thing

2005-10-13T12:07:00.000-05:00

So, I weighed myself on Sunday and I was up 3lbs, and again on Monday and I was 4 more than that. So up 7 full pounds in a matter of days. Which is freaking crazy.

I talked to a friend of mine who's a nutritionist and she said that isn't possible for the human body to pack on FAT like that. That it had to be fluid retention somewhere. So we talked about elimination (pooing) and we talked about natural diruetics (misspelled the crap out of that one) and all that jazz. She asked me how my vitamin C was, because it was a natural diruetic (damned word), and I told her how much I was taking. Her eyes were wide. She asked if I had the right gut tolerance for that. And so I told her what was going on. And since she'd seen me before professionally and had devised a diet plan for me (that didn't work unfortunately), but she told me that she and the doctor that referred me to her, went rows over the appropriate diet plan. She thought that my insulin was out of whack because of how my glucose levels were, so she asked him to order a glucose tolerance test as well as an insulin test, but he said no and that it was fine and normal. She said if we probably could have diagnosed me aproximate 6 years earlier (when the symptoms hit FULL force). Oh well, no use crying over spilled milk. But she and I talked about my current diet and the whole possibility of inflammation and she backed up Ian Stoakes ideas about how it is a direct link to insulin resistance, diabetes, syndrome x, and pcos. She said she couldn't say much as far as the test itself is concerned, she'd have to look into it, but she didn't see how it wasn't possible to check the food on the molecular level and see if the body (blood) was hostile towards it.

And now how the body is funny. I weighed myself yesterday. No change from Monday, still gained 7lbs. Weighed this morning....lost 7lbs. Weird, right? Thank God my only indicator isn't my weight. I'd be an emotional rollercoaster

Positive and negative

2005-10-10T00:03:00.000-05:00

The positive and negative things in life are all a part of perspective. If you are negative you'll find more things negative and negate the positive things as flukes, or even go so far as to overlook them. If you are a positive person, you'll see good things even in the bad, such as lessons learned, or something gained from the experience, and the positive, good things that go on in your life you rejoice in. You also need to remember that the company that you keep can also affect this.
So I understand complaining. Trust me I do my fair share of it. But minor things that are simply a small situation that once you are away from it, it is over, I see no sense in ranting over because all you are doing is keeping yourself in that angry place. And chances are you are bringing someone else into that angry place too. I prefer to just have a few minutes to myself doing whatever it takes to distract me and within 30 minutes or so I'm happy as before. If, however, I don't get my time, or I start to rant about it, I'll stay in that angry place even longer and before long I've found that it's ruined my day. Or at least it takes a not so memorable moment and make it VERY memorable. And I hate that too. I'd rather not discuss it, until later when I'm not so involved in it.
And also, if you ahve something good and positive to say, please say it. With all the complaining and drama that goes on, it is nice to hear something nice. Even if it is something like "Wow, I like the colour of the leaves today". It's better than bitching about how cool it's gotten when just less than 2 months before you were bitching about how hot it was.
So this brings me to the company you keep. Your friends should challenge you in some way. They should bring out good things in you. You should have a great support system with them and you should be able to enjoy a good conversation with them over anything. Talking to your friends shouldn't bring you down frequently. Your friends know when you need their presense without their words. That the very fact that they are there is enough to bring you the strength you need in times of trouble. And they also know when something is wrong when they see you, however don't hound you about it, and express their concern and allow you to express yourself when you are ready. These are the friends you should keep. Not just those that you party with, or those who profess their great acts. Because boasting about them makes them less sincere.
The friends you should concider removing from your life are those that tax you. The ones that make you upset upon talking to them, or the ones that drive you insane. For whatever reason that they grate on your nerves, is generally good enough to drop them from close friend status. Not saying that they are bad people or that they aren't worthy of time, just that there is something that causes friction on your part if not both parts. And the friction keeps you from appreciating the positive things in your life. It keeps you focused on the misery that is surrounding you.
I don't know. Maybe I'm harsh. Maybe I'm just not friendly. But I don't like surrounding myself with people that consistantly make me rub my forehead between my eyes. Or make my head hurt, or make me scream inside my head for them to shut up. I used to be such a negative person. But I've figured out that I was the one who continuously brought myself down rather than others. And that I needed to change my perspective on things and part of that has to do with the company I keep.

further dancing

2005-10-06T11:52:00.000-05:00

Well, I am now down 20lbs since August and 12.75 total inches. Gotta love the vit c in water. :) I'll learn to love the mineral taste by jove! *L* I just bought me a new belly dancing fitness video too. I have another one of their tapes and it is so good. I enjoy it so much so I'm sure I'll enjoy this one too. My girlfriend is gonna do it with me first thing in the mornings. :) RAWR go us! :) I leant her my Insulin Timebomb and New Dawn books. I hope that she sees her inflammation and can do something about it. :) I've been dancing for two days. First I've lost 20lbs. Second the pants I bought just 2 weeks ago are already baggy, GO ME! and I can wear a smaller size pant than I could before. WHOOT! :D My skin is feeling better too. My psoriasis doesn't feel as bad as it has been. This is a MOST wonderful thing! :D It just seems like life is just getting better and better all the time. Thank GOD for Tulin, Tarra, Kerim and of course IAN! Because if it wasn't for them reaching out to help all of us who suffer, I'd still be lost about where to go!

dances

2005-10-03T11:06:00.000-05:00

Ok today is the official weigh in day and I've lost 2lbs since last week. It's a total of 18lbs. :D Rock on for me. And I measured myself on the first and it broke down to I lost 1 total inch. But it was odd. I lost .25 in my chest, thigh, calf. Stayed the same in my ribs waist and ankle. Lost 1 inch in my hips, but gained .25 in my upper arm, forearm, and wrist. What's up with that? *LOL* I'm not complaining though because it's still a total loss. :D Which is all good in my book. And so far so good for this new goal. The new goal is 15lbs by December 1st. So far it's 3 down 12 to go. :D This is making me a most happy Tracy.

I've made the decision to drop my birthcontrol pill. I need to see if I can control my hormones on my own, more than the pill controlling it for me. This is a little experiment. I have refills of it until July, so if I need to get back on them, I can. But I want to know I'm doing it right and on my own. Oh well. :D We'll see.

I wish I had $1500

2005-09-21T10:32:00.000-05:00

so I could go on and take that test, but alas I don't. It's all good though. I think this time being spent working on making myself healthier will make me appreciate it more when I get it. I've been doing loads of thinking about how it occurs down the line. My gramma was always thin, she was always bustling around and now she's down hard because of COPD and she's diabetic (all her sisters are also) . She never had a problem concieving and even had two more children after the doctors told her that she would die if she had another one. She never used birth control and she went through menopause naturally and without too many ripples. My Mom has always had problems with her sugar, even being told she's hypoglycemic (I'd been told that in the past too), and her weight is in her abdomen and she has some facial hair and she's had two children and 3-4 miscarriages and EVERY one of them has been while she was on birth control. And then there is me. I don't have problems with facial hair, but I'm losing what I have on my head, I don't have insulin resistance, yet I gain weight like I do and I'm the one diagnosed with PCOS. Now what I've been thinking is, when my gramma was little she was raised on a farm. Her parents were DIRT poor and if they ate it was only because they grew it. Same with my granddad. And so when they got married and started having their own kids, they started eating what they grew too. Gradually in the advent of modern technology to make things easier for Moms worldwide, things started getting processed and packaged and being touted as being "better for you" and definately more convenient. And then there comes me. I was borne to a 16 year old girl. And she was a single parent. Of course she went with the more convenient means. And I think this would explain why I developed my symptoms so much younger than anyone else did. And I think that this might be why so many more younger people are suffering the same thing. The means they used to make things have a longer shelf-life as well as more convienent is opening our guts up and making us more toxic. Tin cans that contain our veggies taste different than those from the produce department. I still don't understand somethings like Northern Beans from a jar or a can. That just doesn't make much sense to me. Through them badboys in a crockpot while you sleep and by lunch time, they are DONE. Or greenbeans from a can. ICK! If they aren't fresh, I can't eat them. Or corn. See I grew up on canned goods, but once I tasted the farm freshness I can't help but prefer it more. But at the same time, I'd been consuming loads of doritos and white bread and snickers bars. Drinking sodas and juices and koolaid instead of water. Going out to eat was becoming a staple rather than a treat. So all this got me to thinking. If we cut out the processed foods and at more whole, organic foods, then we cut out external toxins and our bodies can repair themselves. At least somewhat. Granted there is going to be foods that we eat that have triggered us for a while because we allowed our guts to become permeable to them, and we'll have to remove those foods. But this is at least a step in the right direction to clean gut health. I've even been reading about colonics and how they work and how our body will store toxins sometimes in the mucus wall of our intestines. I have been debating on trying out clenser to see if it might help out in the detoxifying process.

So I hadn't posted in a while.

2005-09-18T10:35:00.000-05:00

I know I know bad me! So, my Ma got moved into her new place with Adam. *L* She's going to mother him so badly. But it is ok, I think he might need a momma figure concidering what all he's going through. (He's my younger brother's age and needed help with bills and my Ma was homeless and so they decided to room.) Rob is all settled in here, Brandon is all moved out, and my job is settling into my second shift routine. I'm finding myself getting back into my hard to wake up place. I'm not sure if that's because the weather is changing (which I'll do that at the start of fall) or if my foods are all wonky or if it is because I'm not going to bed before 3am. *L* Probably all of the above.

I tried a caramel cup the other day, since it had been a while since I had anything truly sweet, it made my jaw hurt and my eyes water because it was SOOOOOO sweet. So my taste buds are changing, because six months ago I was able to eat a few of them without batting an eye. So yeah....and I don't like soda's anymore. I tried a sip of one the other day, since it was right there, and GAH! it was NOT what I wanted. *LOL* I ended up drinking almost a half gallon of water to get it out of my mouth.

I've lost another two pounds, so that's 1 more before October 1st....think I can do it? I'm so happy that I'm losing some weight and one pound/weeks is good enough for me, though it'll be a long haul before I get down to my goal weight, but it's all good. Some loss is better than no loss right?

OH YEAH! I am wearing a pair of pants that was too tight 6 months ago! And I'm wearing a size 2x tshirt comfortably now too. :D 3x was a little too big but still comfy, and now the 2x fits right. Hopefully soon it, too, will be too big but fits, and then xl BAYBAY YEAH! *LOL* (gotta love dick vitale)

I got all my hair wacked off, it looks cute. However, if Rob doesn't hurry up and take a pick it'll be back to my butt before I can get a picture taken.

oh well, I've blabbered enough. Take care and all be safe!

One month measure

2005-09-01T10:17:00.000-05:00

Ok, I measure Bust (braless), rib, waist, hips (widest part), thigh, calf, ankle, upper arm, forarm, and wrist. This is one month since I measured and I've lost a total of 6.5 inches in this month. I also weigh in on measure days, even though I have an official Monday weigh in day. And I've lost another two pounds, that puts me to 12 total pounds lost since August 1st. :D This makes me a most happy Tracy. Especially since I have a 15lb goal for October 1st. :D

Well, I haven't

2005-08-29T12:48:00.000-05:00

lost anything this week, however, that's how it ran. I lost the first, but not the second, lost the third but not this week. I measure myself on Thursday, which I'm sure it's not made much difference in the inches lost, but that'll pick up soon enough. I'm letting Nan borrow my Insulin Time-bomb book and New Dawn book. I hope it does her some good. But she really is going to have to change her eating habits if she wants to concieve a child. If she doesn't do the elimination diet, she really needs to cut out the type of carbs she eats and she's already a diabetic.

I wonder if I'll have a period this week, or when it'll start. Last time it didn't come until the next to last pill in the pack. So hopefully, it'll happen more regular. I'm really not holding my breath though.

Welp, I have to start getting ready for work. Bye for now

well, today is the OFFICIAL weigh in day,and officially

2005-08-22T17:56:00.000-05:00

I've lost 10lbs this month. So I'm really stoked. :D My friend Adam came over last night and as he was leaving he asked me if I've lost some weight. :D That made me feel good. WOOT! lots of water.....LOTS of water. *LOL* I"m drinking LOTS Of water.

Ok, so I cheated....

2005-08-20T10:31:00.000-05:00

I hopped on my scales a few days early. And I've lost another 4lbs. :D WHOOHOO! So that's 8 total pounds and 95 left to get rid of. :D So far I'm doing ok on my goal of 15lbs by October 1st. No real reason for that amount or that time, it just seemed to be a fair amount of weight for the timeframe I gave myself. Now if I don't make it, I'll adjust it accordingly. But so far this month I've done REAL well on my fruits and veggies and drinking my water. No sodas in almost 2 weeks. VERY little candy, literally 3 pieces of candy in that amount of time. I've eaten lots of fruit though. *L* At least 2 a day, and I am almost consistant on my gallon of water. Almost. There are some days I miss the mark. But most of the time, it's just at a gallon. And I drink a cup of lactose free fat free organic milk. I actually like it.

Some things I've noticed since changing those few things. I am getting up around 7:30 every morning. Except this morning. I deliberately went back to sleep this morning (yes I did wake up at 7:30) because of having to work late. I think I'm going to get up at 8am every morning though and work out. I've gotta see if I can handle doing that though. So I'm going to see about it this week, and working out sporadically this week to start getting in the groove and then hit it hardcore when I can get a time that I can wake up comfortably. Also, my nails are growing....fast...and thicker. Which I'm not going to complain about. I think it is the million and one vitamins I'm taking at this time. But that's all good. :D AND my hair isn't falling out in as massive amounts as it was a few months ago. Thank goodness I have enough that it wasn't readily apparent to those who didn't know me back in high school.

Also this is the end of the two week prior to period mark and I'm not turning into superbitch. Which is a good thing. *L* I don't like being superbitch.

Also, I'm emailing this wonderful lady in California who has PCOS and is on a whole organic foods type of regimen, and though I'm not on a calorie restriction as of right now, I am gearing myself towards more organic foods and eating more whole foods as well. And she gave me a list of what she eats and doesn't eat. So I've written it down and it now hangs on my fridge of the do's and don't's . (yes I know that wasn't grammatically correct but I don't care :P )

The second week of September I'll be having my 24 hour fast, to reset myself. :) I'm actually looking foward to it. I think I'll introduce avocados as the first food afterwards to see if it is good or not. I don't eat them at all. Last time I tasted them, I didn't like them. But I felt the same way about pineapples and tried them recently and fell in love with them. So who knows.

Well, I had to stop the elimination diet.

2005-08-16T12:55:00.000-05:00

Rice turned out to be bad the next day. I felt shame, and disappointment so I haven't posted in here or in pcosliving because of it. Two foods out of two. Tulin says that most people have only 10-15 trigger foods. So I guess this means I'm ahead of the game in finding foods that I can't eat. But it really sucked. It would mean fasting again until I found another one. Which really I wasn't looking forward to. But what I wasn't looking forward to the most was the thought process of "I can lose lots of weight this way." I was anorexic before and I know how fast not eating works as far as pounds dropping off. And I've fought so hard to not be that way, to make sure I ate something every day and that I don't do diet pills or speed because that will help me out in being more sick. Doing this in as healthy a way as possible is my goal. And I found those thoughts of "I can "fast" (aka starve) myself and I can lose so much weight". But I have to say that it works. It's accurate. And there is NO naysaying on my part as far as this elimination diet works. I want Tulin and all them to know that I'm behind them 100% and I will get my test one day. I've got to save up for it, but I'll do it, and I'll be 100% on the right track. But until then, because of the Insulin issues, it won't be bad for me to go with the original train of thought of eating more natural and more back to basics. Cutting out the fakeness and out of the processed foods. This way I'll be eating more true and natural grains and foods in their more natural states. And when I can afford the test, I'll take the test.

I like how I felt after the fast, so I'll fast once a month. A 24hr water fast. And I'll introduce ONE new food to see if it is a good food or a bad food. If it's bad, I'll just add it to the bad list.

I should get my books from my friend sometime in the next few days. It's been almost a week since he sent them. I should also get the book GI Diet to help me figure out which are the worst carbs and whatnot.

Oh well, I'm going to get off here and post on Pcosliving and let them know I've not deserted them or naysayed them. That I'm still rooting for them and believing in what they say.

Well, the turkey was bad.

2005-08-11T21:28:00.000-05:00

I didn't think so at first. It was a mild headache last night. But it was also getting closer to time to meet up with Craig and he stresses me. He's so needy and whiny, and I know Carolyn would say that I was putting his needs before my own, but gee, he drove all the way down here to sit with me at Denny's for a few hours to drink a soda (on his part) and a water (on mine). So I figured that was the culprit for the mild headache, it seemed kinda tension-y. So I thought nothing else of it. Then I ate the turkey this morning, but this time my stomach wasn't acting too happy, but gee, honestly, I don't shovel amounts of protein in my stomach at any given time, so I figured it was my stomach complaining about the new means of taking care of me, because that soon passed to a mild queasy feeling. So I get my check and pay my bills and go into work. As soon as I get there, I get asked over to the paint counter to help this lady out and then it turned into several ladies. And my manager gets cranky because someone was paged to the sporting goods counter (where I usually work). She was there as was her lead associate and I. And since I was busy at the paint counter, one of them could have handled the counter with ease. However, she decided to have a bee in her bonnet. So she started to chew me out because the girl in the paint department wasn't back from her break yet. And my head started hurting. It was worse than the night before, but that woman stresses me. She's not very organized and she's quick to run off at the meatflaps and she loves to tell me all about it. So I figured the headache was part of that. So I went about my job, la-dee-da. And so lunch time rolls around, and I get me some really good turkey breast and I eat it. And before my lunch was done my head started throbbing RIGHT between my eyes. Lunch gets over and I thought it would subside some. But it just continues to get worse until I couldn't stand it. So, I continued to drink my water but then my stomach started hurting more, and my muscles ached and I felt sooooooooooooooooo tired. So, I decided that turkey...my first food choice....was bad for me. :( Oh well, at least it isn't something I eat all the time. If it was, I'd be bawling right now. Soooo.....here I am back to fasting. I won't do a full 48 hours. I didn't even get to eat for 24. So I'll just make it as long as I can, hopefully until lunch tomorrow, that will put it at about 24 hours. So I'll just try my next food choice....which is Jasmine rice. I really pray that this isn't a trigger. If so, I may just give up and start saving my pennies for the test.

And so my alarm goes off

2005-08-11T06:43:00.000-05:00

And I've been sitting here for exactly 30 minutes. And normally that wouldn't phase me in the slightest. Well, normally yeah it would too. I don't "normally" get up until around 10am....9 AT the earliest without and alarm clock....this morning, it said 6:13. 6:13AM. A....M.... I went to bed around 12:30am this morning, as I was a wee bit tired (and fell promptly asleep....not usual either as I stay up around 2-3-4am most mornings because I can't sleep) So I'm awake. I don't feel bad. And I weighed myself this morning to see if I gained any of my "fasting" weight back...no and I even lost a pound. So total for the WHOLE experience is 9 almost 10 pounds...since the 1st of August, and I've had most of it in the past few days. This is just amazing to me. I wonder if this will stay that way until Monday?

So I woke up this morning.

2005-08-10T10:32:00.000-05:00

And I thought about sleeping a little more, but NOPE, my eyes wouldn't shut. *L* So I woke up and I was pretty awake. Not tired, not groggy, not frankensteinish. I piddled about online for a few moments, drank some water and took a shower and went out to pay my utility bill. I came home, drank the rest of that bottle of water and started on the next with vitamin C. :D I'm slightly hungry, it's not strong but pretty consistant today, however, I'm not shakey nor am I feeling badly. I would have figured that I wouldn't be able to do this, since I've had hypoglycemic episodes in the past. However, I'm doing fine. :D This is the most amazing thing. I peeked at the scales the night I started this. So I weighed about 2 hours after I ate, and I had gained a pound after the 4 pound loss. I weighed this morning after drinking a bottle of water and I weigh 5 pounds less than that. But really if you think about it, I weighed after eating so that pound is probably my body digesting the food and drink that I had consumed. I'm not counting anything until Monday though. Monday is the weigh in day, and I'll see how the scale looks then. And then I'll measure on the first of the month. Which I know is 9 days shy of a full month, however, it is a month after I started to effect a lifestyle change. I am so excited for tonight. I am really praying that turkey isn't a bad food for me. I don't look forward to fasting anymore than this.

Oh I had heard from my friend, he has put the books in the post, so hopefully I'll get it in a few days. :) I can't wait.

And in the Bible Jesus fasted

2005-08-09T21:40:00.000-05:00

It is said in the Bible that Jesus would fast two days a week, as He tithed everything He possessed. And there times when people of the Bible would fast for 40 days and 40 nights with no food or drink. I cannot make it that long. *L* I'll just be honest. I'll be doing REAL good to get out this 48 hours. However, if I can't do it, I have my food already picked out and waiting for me in the fridge. I opted to eat turkey, as it is something that I don't eat very often. I eat chicken all the time and I eat beef just slightly less often than that. And with turkey you can do ANYTHING with it. *L* So I'm going to eat turkey, then if that goes over well, I'll have jasmine rice to add to it. And if that goes well I'll go with broccoli. And then in there somewhere I'll have to add pepper, green tea and honey and pineapple and olive oil. After that it'll be more veggies and maybe another starch and another meat. I want to add things in clusters that will have other things to work with, so I'll be able to develop other meals. With all that I mentioned so far, that's 18 days of food right there. That sure is a lot of turkey. :) I hope it isn't bad joojoo. Right now I'm down 26 hours, 22 hours left to go.

How I feel

2005-08-07T00:37:00.000-05:00

Tulin said I should post how I feel and it'll give me something to look at later after I've taken the vitamin C and started taking better care of myself, and it'll help me to remember the bad times. Currently I'm tired. I worked my whole shift and now I'm home and I have to be up early to work an early shift tomorrow. But to be honest I was tired 2 hours into my shift. Tired enough I could have slept. And it's been like that for about 2 weeks now. I am tired around 3 pm every day. But then I'll have bouts of insomnia. Really though, I don't feel any better or any worse than I have in a while. I'll be honest here and say I've not been truly happy in a long time. I've had better days and I've had worse days but the majority of my days aren't spent happy. More like resigned than content. I'm very malcontent to be honest. I'm displeased with most things me. But I've been slowly coming out of that too. I'm not sure how much of this part is pcos and how much of it is actually coming to terms with me from my self-discoveries after my breakup with Rob. Physically, I'm lethargic and tired and bleh, and sometimes it feels like the energy it takes to get up and walk is just too much to bear. Emotionally, I'm more sound than I've been in a while, but that comes from gaining spirituality and finding and becoming ok with me. But I'm still not happy. And I'm not sure what it'll take to make me happy. Mentally, I feel under par and I have for quite some time. I'm usually pretty on top of things, and as time wears on, I've been slipping further and further down the road of dur-dom. Everyone that has known me for years and years can tell you I'm not as sharp as I used to be. How much of this is age though? How much is PCOS? How much is just not keeping up with things like I used to? I'm going to start taking my vitamin C tomorrow with my water, 1/4 teaspoon 4 times a day. That'll be about 4 grams of Vitamin C. If it is too much I'll cut back. Maybe even do 1/4 teaspoon 2 times a day first and see how that goes, then move up from there. That's what I'll do. And I'm taking fish oil now too as well as my multi-vitamin, cranberry pill, magnesium oxide and biotin. I need to take a b complex, but I HATE how it makes my pee turn to a dark yellow no matter how much water I drink. That's just NASTY. Hopefully there is one available that won't do that to me. Otherwise, I just don't know about taking the complex. Surely someone has some suggestion though. :D I really can't wait to get my books and get to seeing what the buzz is about.

I got to watch some videos that Kerim put on the website that shows this one PMN cell attacking all these other cells and then a bunch of red blood cells acting all retarded. Now granted I don't understand much when it comes to that part of the body, but I understand the violent nature of that one cell attacking the others. And it just seems that if my body is treating food as if it were an enemy and trying to kill it, then it would be safe to assume that it is partly the cause of some problems in my body. Almost like a slow poison. And I can't be having that!

Well oh well lookie what decided to stop by

2005-08-06T11:43:00.000-05:00

AF. *LOL* the next to last day on this pack of pills and it's here. It decided to show up yesterday, so I guess I don't call the doc and tell him that it didn't show up because it did. I'm not sure how long it'll last though because I start the next package tomorrow. But I won't complain because it is here and I'm happy to have had one. :D Wow I keep forgetting my friend reads this. *LOL* He reminded me of it last night and now he knows my dirty secrets. :P I'm going by the healthfood store today to get some vitamin c powder. I actually looked last night at work but all they had were tablets or chewables. I want the powder to put in my water, flavour it up a bit. Though I LOVE regular water, this is supposed to help me out too, and what better way is there than to add more good stuff to already good stuff?

I talked to this woman last night at work named Nan. She's a fellow employee and though she's never been diagnosed with pcos, I'd swear to you she has it. She's already in type II diabetes and she's got the "dirty" neck, and she can grow an almost full beard and there's definately something up with her insulin, she cannot get pregnant, rarely ovulates, and has a slew of other issues that is PCOS. She and I have talked about it, and she is already on metformin but it isn't doing her pcos any good, just keeping her insulin regular. So maybe after I get Ian's books, and start on the road to recovery, it'll inspire her to do it too. I worry for her, because she's in much worse shape than I am in. I wish I had the ability to pay anything online, I'd order her the books myself. I know she's really super broke and cannot afford to do it on her own. I wish I could give her this gift like it's being given to me. I am going to take my PCOS book by Colette Harris to her since I've already read it. It can only help her if she chooses to let it.

I'm stoked....

2005-08-04T11:33:00.000-05:00

I'm waiting for my books to come from my friend's house in Canada. I'll be getting "The Insulin Time-Bomb" and "The New Dawn". I'll be honest....when I first read about the books, I was curious how it could work. I saw Tulin's pictures. Her before and after and it was only 30 days. AMAZING difference. And I truly believe she wasn't starving. And I want results like that. I want to feel better like she's feeling. I doubt I could do the elimination diet. That's some serious will power and I'm not sure if I have it. However, my health is so worth it. Until then I'm cutting certain things out of my system which cannot be bad. Refined sugars and bleached flours and processed foods. Going 100% natural and real foods cannot kill you. So far I've lost 4 pounds. This makes me most happy. I'm now under 280lbs. I'm hoping that by the end of the year I can be around 250. That's my hopes anyways. I think I can accomplish it. I want to ovulate on my own. NOT that I want to have children yet, but I think it would be wonderful to have a real normal period. The birth control pills that the doctor put me on in the hopes that it'll cause me to have a period aren't working I believe. :( I've not had one yet. On Monday I'll call him and let him know that I've not had a period and I am not sure what he'll tell me. Personally I'd rather just not be on them anymore. I'll probably give the second pack a shot, if I don't start next month, then I'll just take myself off of the pill. Because really, what good are they doing me? The only bonus I'm seeing so far is that I'm not losing as much hair as I was. That was starting to worry me. :( The amounts of hair I lose anymore is frightening. My roommate has even asked me if I was balding because I'd have to be with the amount of hair that I'm losing. He said he doesn't even lose that much hair and he IS balding. Oh well, I can't wait, and I'm sure I'll start the elimination diet or something close to it sometime soon. :)

Got the glucose tolerance tests back.

2005-07-28T22:58:00.000-05:00

The doctor says they are absolutely in the middle of the normal range. I'm going to request transcripts of my history from all the places I've been in the last 6 years. Also I'm going to get a copy from this Doctor too. Not that I don't trust him. I do, because he's the only one who says yes there is something wrong with me. I just want it for all my own records. I'm really lost where I'm going to go with this. I really think I'm going to do the South Beach Diet until I get my New Dawn books in. Then I'm going to read those, discuss them with my doctor and then see whether I need to go completely elimination, or modified elimination. I really do see the logic in it, I just don't know if I can go full monty with it.

Just some thoughts

2005-07-22T10:23:00.000-05:00

I finished reading the book by Colette Harris. I learned some things in there which I find will help me. I really don't see how they won't help. I'm sure they'd help anyone in any given situation as well as something specific for me with PCOS. I have always heard that you should eat first thing in the morning THEN exercise. The book says that certain exercises are best done on a "fasting stomach" as they help your insulin work appropriately. Things like walking, cycling, jogging, swimming and that sort of thing. They suggested doing it first thing in the morning when you wake up. They said to start out for 10 minutes or so to start out, until you get used to it. I'm sure it would help me wake up as I have the hardest time waking up in the mornings. I have to get up 2 hours before having to be anywhere, otherwise I'm too useless. I thought this was just me. I thought I was just one of those people that had a hard way to wake up. But really I'm just tired and not really motivated to do much. I can't wait until the day comes when I feel like I have energy and like I can accomplish anything.

This is the first post here

2005-07-19T12:46:00.000-05:00

I've decided to make a blog of my personal journey with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I want to keep this separate from my other blog on another site, not due to shame, I'm sure I'll refer to many of them here, however, this is a new place...a new beginning, if you will. I was diagnosed with this illness/disease/series of symptoms that have no known(or acceptable) cause on July 7th, 2005. However, in my own research I've found that I've suffered a majority of these symptoms since puberty. Back then it was told to me and my Mother, "It's her hormones, they'll level off and she'll be ok." Then as a young adult, "It's just how some women are, you'll mature and it'll be ok." Then at 22 I was told that I'd "more than likely never concieve" and when asked why being told "I'm not sure why, your uterus is just a hostile environment, I guess." With no investigation into the WHY I cannot concieve a child. Even though at the time I wasn't trying to. So, over the years of infrequent and often barely there periods and birth control pills preventing me from having periods and of steady weight gain, no matter what I did to curb it, insomnia but yet fatigue, becoming an emotional wreck and obcessing on things that would not have bothered me years before. I know that I've made others in my life go through hell dealing with my outbursts and my issues.

So now I've got this diagnosis. Where do I go from here? How do I best go through this? One site says I cannot do myself any good if I don't get on metformin, another says that I need to kill myself on diet to find triggers that bloat me. And that will solve all my issues with everything. Now I'm not discounting either of these courses. They both very well could be what helps me out, maybe even both in combination. I don't know. I won't know until I figure things out as well as with the consultation with my physician.

I do know what I want to do, I want to do this as naturally as possible without further jeopardizing my health. I would rather not be stuck on meds for the rest of my life. So I'm doing my own research and taking my findings to my physician to see what he says. He and I agree that the fewer the meds and the more responsibility I take on for myself, the better off in the long run I'll be.

I've currently got the book "PCOS: A Woman's Guide to Dealing with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome". So far it's a good basis and it is written by a doctor and a woman who's been dealing with this illness for a while. I like how it is being written and I like how conversational it is.

I've also got a couple of books by Ian Stoakes called "The Insulin Time-bomb" and "A New Dawn". It'll be a while before I can get them, they are coming from England. So I'll be sure to blog in here about what I find in those books.

On the 25th, I go in to get a 2 hour glucose test done. That's when we'll just how my insulin reacts to bring down the sugar in the drink they give me. If it is all good, then it is just a change in diet and such. And of course on Birth Control Pills as I don't want a child if I could ever concieve of one. I'm hopeful that this is all that I'll have to do.

Eating right and exercising never killed anyone, right?

The Journey Begins

Back from the doctor

Well this is the 6th day

My new routine.....the one that needs to stick...

So I went to the doc today

some changes

2006

:(

YAY!

Super poop of a day

Hmmm

So I'm blogging at the end of the day, surprise surprise

Hmmm

exercising, conversations and life

Second day running

Weight is such a finicky thing

Positive and negative

*further dancing*

*dances*

I wish I had $1500

So I hadn't posted in a while.

One month measure

Well, I haven't

well, today is the OFFICIAL weigh in day,and officially

Ok, so I cheated....

Well, I had to stop the elimination diet.

Well, the turkey was bad.

And so my alarm goes off

So I woke up this morning.

And in the Bible Jesus fasted

How I feel

Well oh well lookie what decided to stop by

I'm stoked....

Got the glucose tolerance tests back.

Just some thoughts

This is the first post here

further dancing

dances